My Comfort Zone

That’s what I am feeling now and it is so intense that it brought tears into my eyes. I did mention about being in a long distance relationship before and since the day we first met which was three months ago, things became more difficult. It was a struggle for me most especially in those days that I need comfort and today is one of those days. It’s not an everyday thing though. There are just times that I feel so sad and empty all of a sudden and that’s when I longed for my BA’s hugs, warm bear hugs. That’s all I need and I’ll be okay.

But how can I? He’s thousand miles away from me. All he could do is comfort me with his words. It did comfort me in a way but the warmth of his hugs is what I need. Sigh…

That’s what I was feeling last night and the previous nights actually since my BA left. I don’t know, maybe I was just missing him terribly. We’ve spent sixteen days of being together every single day during his vacation here and his departure really made me sad. But who wouldn’t? I think anyone would feel the same way like I did. I was trying to keep myself busy the previous days but still, emptiness engulfed me. But i’m better now as compared to last night. I know i’ll get used to it in time – not being with him like I used to. I just have to be patient and believe that we’ll be together again real soon.

Since yesterday, that is. Being a homebody, i was used to staying at home almost everyday. I just go out whenever i have important things to settle, have invitations from friends, or if i have something to buy somewhere.

But my routine changed instantly when my BA arrived. For 16 days, i’ve been out of the house every single day. We ate out and checked every nice place for him to see. And yesterday was the end of it all. It was his last day here and i was back to the real world again. The same routine i got used to. And i think i need to adjust again because i’m starting to miss those days when we’re together. But it’s only for the meantime though. We will be together again soon and i can’t wait for that day to come.

Missing my Big Angel so much now…Sigh…

Yes, that’s what i felt when my BA handed this very precious thing to me that I thought I’d never have. I can’t tell you just yet what it is. It will remain a secret for now; just for now though. I will definitely share about it, eventually.

It’s certainly the most wonderful feeling any woman can experience. It may only be a material thing but the fact that it symbolizes his true love and sincerity to me, I simply couldn’t ask for more. Do i sound cheesy? Well, I feel like being cheesy now so please just leave it like that. LOL. You will understand why anyway once you’ve found out what it is. *wink*