My Comfort Zone

I know I’ve been writing a lot about the rotating brownouts that we’ve been having, basically whining and complaining about it, but I’m sure I’m not the only one who’s aggravated about this situation. All of us here are fed up with it and we feel so helpless because there’s nada we can do about it.

It’s more annoying when it happens in the evening because it interrupts the cooking of dinner. And who can sleep in this blazing heat (other than Lucifer himself) without a fan or air conditioning? I’m actually starting to have dark circles around my eyes, though it’s not that visible yet. But soon, if this continues, I know I’ll eventually need some eye cream for dark circles because the brownouts will be an ongoing scenario until June. And again, I know I will not be the only one who’s complaining about this, or who will be needing an eye fixer upper.

I was awake but I couldn’t move my body nor my fingers.  I was struggling to move any of them but to no avail and I was even calling names but no one seemed to hear me, and that’s it. I knew it then that I was having a bad dream. After several attempts, I was finally able to move my right leg. I was breathing so hard and deep and I feel my nerves shaking. That was such a bad dream.

I got up immediately feeling a little dizzy and went straight to the living room. I was a little surprised to see the house so quiet only to remember that my aunt did tell me that they were leaving. I thought I was all alone but when I checked my parent’s room, dad was there sleeping.

Still feeling dizzy, I went straight to the PC and wrote an email for BA with fingers still shaking and all. I was all tensed up but still managed to create an email. I do wonder though if it made sense. After doing so, that’s the only time that I remember to get myself a glass of water to at least calm my nerves. It did help a little but I wasn’t A-ok until I stuffed my tummy.

I went to take my nap right after lunch with my tummy full and that’s probably why I had a nightmare. I won’t do that again next time.

Sometimes I wonder why can’t people seem to realize things. Don’t they really care or just plainly being insensitive? I don’t know what else to think. Sometimes I feel sorry for myself for being treated such. Such in which it seems like I hold responsible for every individual in this household. Like I’m their nanny? Excuse me!? Have you forgotten that I’m a member of this family too.

Oh well… what can I say? I should have gotten used to it since it’s been happening for years. Well, I don’t really mumble like this in times when I’m in a good mood. But today was different. Everything is just way too different.

I started my day right…full of smiles and love because today is a special day for my BA and I. But everything changed when she started yakking at me for one thing I believe is not my responsibility anymore. Oh well… Such is life!