My Comfort Zone

It’s only 7:40 in the evening but I am already sleepy. We had our dinner at 6 o’clock like we always do and I do always go to bed after like 30 minutes but not tonight. Yes, as I’ve said a while ago, I am already sleepy but my emotions is hindering me from going to bed. I want to pour out my emotions first. I have no one to talk to here since people are busy with their lives. So rather then talking to myself, I will just write what I have in mind. I’ve proven and tested this way to be very effective.

I am disappointed, really disappointed, and I feel like I want to shout right at this very minute. I don’t feel like crying though. Just want to shout to the top of my lungs until I will lost my voice. I have this feeling that it will help ease my disappointment away. I so wanted to talk to someone, but there’s no one to talk to. It’s like the same as being alone and lost when in fact there are people around you, but the problem is, they’d rather read than talk to you. Well, sorry you! You’re probably not interesting to talk to at all so they’d rather read. Yeah, maybe that’s the reason behind. Sorry me then!

I am pretty sure that they are merely life’s spices and without them life will be dull but what can I say? They simply annoyed me to the highest level. They are not perfect, I know, and I can’t blame them totally but oh well. They could have been more careful about it. It’s been their work for years so they should have mastered that craft already. Duh!

But there’s no use crying over spilled milk, right? Even if I will yak and yak about it, nothing can be done now. I would only be wasting my time and effort in yakking. I’d rather keep my mouth shut instead and have peace.

Yeah, right!

I bet you know the feeling of disappointment and perhaps, frustration when your expectation on something is so high and all of a sudden, it didn’t go the way you wanted it to be. It is really upsetting that I wanted to roll down and cry. LOL. Glad I still managed to make fun of it when in fact what happened today was really frustrating to the highest level. GRRR!

But there’s nothing I can do about it now and the more I rant about it, the more it will just ruin my day and I will not gain anything from it at all anyway. So, I think the best way for me to do is move on and just forget about the whole thing. It’s not the end of everything yet anyway so what the heck!!!

I woke up yesterday energized and was looking forward to my plans but unfortunately, I wasn’t able to accomplish anything because of some circumstances that was beyond my control. I was supposed to get some documents and go to the bank for some transaction that needs to be done ASAP but oh well, nothing happened.

The reason? No one’s going to be left here at home. My cousin only worked half of the day and mom left mid-morning and didn’t go home during lunch time like what she told me. I couldn’t leave the house because the workers are here and they would be needing materials from the storeroom.

I can’t go today too because I will be doing some online and offline work here at home. I have no choice but to do it Monday. Hope it won’t still be late.

I do wonder why she’s been harsh with us all of a sudden. I was referring to a friend that I’ve known for years. She sounds bitter every time she speaks about a friend of mine and about me like she seems to be unhappy. Maybe she really is not happy about how things go well with me and my other friend. She’s jealous, I know and envious because until now, she’s not married still. Her unhappiness was brought by those negative characteristics. But that got me thinking. I thought she’s a real friend. Well, true colors are showing up, I guess.

And those are not the only things that I’ve discovered actually. There were still things that she has done that I never thought she is capable of doing and I just pity the other half. I’m referring to her boyfriend that she’s been using to get to her ambition. All the while I thought that she’s afraid of karma since I’ve known her to be religious but I was wrong. Oh well, I believe in karma and I just hope it won’t hit her real hard. Pitiful!

I haven’t talked to her about this yet because I was always caught off-guard whenever she says harsh words. I can be harsh too but she’s fortunate because I wasn’t in my bad mood during those times. But the next time she’ll do it, she’ll have a dose of her own medicine.

The previous three days plus today has just been so hectic for me. It was my son Yogi’s school recognition day on Friday and Thursday was spent shopping for his needs. Half of the day on Friday was spent for his recognition in school and the rest of the day was spent with colleagues. It was the deadline of our case’s submission and there were a lot of things that needed to be done.

Yesterday, Saturday was payroll day for our family’s business and today, Sunday is Yogi’s birthday. I’ve been busy since this morning preparing the house for tonight’s li’l party but being the multi-tasker that I always am, I still managed to squeeze in a little time for my online journal, thus, I’m here blabbing. Hehe.

There are still more things to be done here in prep for tonight so I think I need to go and start rumbling. (“,)

And we only have an hour left to enjoy the coolness of the A/C. As always, we still are experiencing rotational brownouts everyday but the good things is, the power company already gave their consumers leaflets of the power outages schedule giving us a heads up of when the power will be out thus, turning off our appliances before it will go… POOF! And today our schedule is from 4:00 p.m. to 7:00 p.m. That’s three hours there.

We could still use the PCs though because we have a generator. We can use the electric fans too but nothing can be comfier than the A/C with the weather that we have now. Oh well, we can’t do anything about it so I just have to satisfy myself with an electric fan and be thankful too that at least I have one. (“,)