My Comfort Zone

That’s what I am feeling now and it is so intense that it brought tears into my eyes. I did mention about being in a long distance relationship before and since the day we first met which was three months ago, things became more difficult. It was a struggle for me most especially in those days that I need comfort and today is one of those days. It’s not an everyday thing though. There are just times that I feel so sad and empty all of a sudden and that’s when I longed for my BA’s hugs, warm bear hugs. That’s all I need and I’ll be okay.

But how can I? He’s thousand miles away from me. All he could do is comfort me with his words. It did comfort me in a way but the warmth of his hugs is what I need. Sigh…

I was awake but I couldn’t move my body nor my fingers.  I was struggling to move any of them but to no avail and I was even calling names but no one seemed to hear me, and that’s it. I knew it then that I was having a bad dream. After several attempts, I was finally able to move my right leg. I was breathing so hard and deep and I feel my nerves shaking. That was such a bad dream.

I got up immediately feeling a little dizzy and went straight to the living room. I was a little surprised to see the house so quiet only to remember that my aunt did tell me that they were leaving. I thought I was all alone but when I checked my parent’s room, dad was there sleeping.

Still feeling dizzy, I went straight to the PC and wrote an email for BA with fingers still shaking and all. I was all tensed up but still managed to create an email. I do wonder though if it made sense. After doing so, that’s the only time that I remember to get myself a glass of water to at least calm my nerves. It did help a little but I wasn’t A-ok until I stuffed my tummy.

I went to take my nap right after lunch with my tummy full and that’s probably why I had a nightmare. I won’t do that again next time.

I’ve talked about experiencing power interruptions for months before but we’ve been enjoying no interruptions after that for like three months. And now, here it comes again. We’ve had power outages for half an hour to an hour since yesterday and it’s really annoying with the weather that we have and it has been so hot lately, about 30 degrees Celsius which is really hot. The AC is on almost all day and when there’s power outages, we can’t do anything but use fans instead.

I wonder what’s the problem this time. Before, they said it’s because of power shortage. Hope the authorities will be able to fix the problem soon enough because it can really be uncomfortable having no power and definitely annoying.

Can you see the people who graced the event? I talked about the Foam Party here before but the pictures I’ve included was taken at day time and here’s what I took during the event itself. Still taken from my BA’s room at the fourth floor of the hotel.

The hotel’s parking area was jam packed with people that night from all ages and from all walks of life. There was a live concert and a popular artist from Manila came to show what they’ve got too. We didn’t stay long though because BA and I will still have to travel out of town the next day.

The stage was at the right side where you can see the spotlight. That night was full of good danceable music, party people and pure fun!

We were supposed to visit my hubby’s and grandparents’ tombs this afternoon but due to unavoidable circumstances, it was postponed. We were just waiting for sundown so it won’t be so hot and crowded at the memorial park but dad changed his mind. He’s been working since this morning, finishing his drawings for a client which made him exhausted in the afternoon already.

It’s okay though since we still have tomorrow to pay them a visit. And I really hope tomorrow’s plan won’t be postponed like today. It’s been a while that we haven’t visited their tombs and this is the best time to pay respect since it’s All Soul’s Day.