My Comfort Zone

A typhoon known as Ondoy hit Luzon and damaged Metro Manila last week. The devastation that it brought has been in the headlines since and watching it is really heart breaking. They are so pitiful especially those kids who managed to sleep on the sidewalk with no blankets that would keep them warm.

The water is waist deep in some parts of the metro but worst in other parts wherein the water almost reached the roof of a one-story house. It’s really shocking seeing those people in those situations and I feel lucky for myself for not being able to surpass the trials they are going through now. All I can do now is help them through my prayers. I know it’s a nightmare for them but I know it’ll be over soon.

Sometimes I wonder why can’t people seem to realize things. Don’t they really care or just plainly being insensitive? I don’t know what else to think. Sometimes I feel sorry for myself for being treated such. Such in which it seems like I hold responsible for every individual in this household. Like I’m their nanny? Excuse me!? Have you forgotten that I’m a member of this family too.

Oh well… what can I say? I should have gotten used to it since it’s been happening for years. Well, I don’t really mumble like this in times when I’m in a good mood. But today was different. Everything is just way too different.

I started my day right…full of smiles and love because today is a special day for my BA and I. But everything changed when she started yakking at me for one thing I believe is not my responsibility anymore. Oh well… Such is life!

My son just left for school, my brother also left to accompany his fiance’ to her doctor, mom visited my nephew Nikko at the hospital and dad’s out of town for some business matters. I’m alone and all I can hear is the music of Farm Town (a farming game on FB).

Whenever i’m bored, it’s the game that’s keeping me entertained and company if I may say so. Some finds it boring but well, obviously I don’t. We do have different interests anyway, so that’s okay.

Oh well, it’s almost lunch time and i’ll have mine alone. More often than not, I don’t feel like eating whenever i’m alone but I need to grab a bite and feed my pets or else, they’ll probably go ballistic. LOL.

It already rained. We haven’t had rainshowers for weeks and the weather is just so darn hot. It reached to about 35 to 36 degrees, I think which was really so irritating not to mention, not power saving at all. The AC is on almost all throughout the day everyday because of the heat.

But two days ago, we just had a heavy downpour all of a sudden and it felt like a blessing really. It was around 10 o’clock in the evening that time and I was already in bed when I heard the rain starting to fall. I was like, “Wow! Finally!.” And it’s been raining either in the afternoon or in the evening since then. It’s raining now actually and it made me real glad.

And it can really be irritating most especially if you have things to do online like chatting with my BA perhaps. Yes, there were already times that we weren’t able to chat because of the power interruption. More often that not, the interruption occurs late in the afternoon until early evening which is, unfortunately, our scheduled time to chat. Call that ironic!

As i’ve heard on the news, power shortage is the reason behind the interruptions and I think we’ll be experiencing it for the next couple of months still. Oh well! We can’t do anything about it but be patient. It’s beyond our control anymore, anyway.

That’s what I was feeling last night and the previous nights actually since my BA left. I don’t know, maybe I was just missing him terribly. We’ve spent sixteen days of being together every single day during his vacation here and his departure really made me sad. But who wouldn’t? I think anyone would feel the same way like I did. I was trying to keep myself busy the previous days but still, emptiness engulfed me. But i’m better now as compared to last night. I know i’ll get used to it in time – not being with him like I used to. I just have to be patient and believe that we’ll be together again real soon.